Pimps and Ho's

Rachel Marie and I decided we should try out Club-O in Brizzel, well it was kind of my idea so I should take responsibility really. After meeting up with Rach, we were given the grand tour of Club-O by Geoff the owner, we were guaranteed to love it and it did look like a good venue - the club's got a (real) well! It accommodates a wide range of activities most of which I wouldn't be interested in a participating in if I'm perfectly honest - not that I usually lie.

The pub we were staying at was in the village where the whole road is gay*, if you know what I mean. After an ATM-Fail we walked in to town which is about 5 mins away to get cash and some food, while we were enjoying our food at GBK we see what was possibly the pinnacle of the weekend, a proper Pimp fully kitted out including cane, at this point we realised that we were in the coolest part of town. The area has all the high-street shops that you might want to visit for something new before heading out on the town, Topshop, H&M, New Look etc all present.

We got ready to the sound track of the Eurovision Song Contest which I was in awe of, one of the entrants had a girl miming and dancing while the real singer was at the edge of the stage - poor girl.

We walked to the club which only took about 3-4 mins, as we were new members we had to provide proof of address and ID which they didn't like the fact that we had our femme names despite me checking with Ge off before our arrival, ah no worries. It was pretty quiet when we got there, we got a couple of glasses and had some of the wine we took along - it's bring your own booze although they've just got their licence so it'll be available behind the bar soon.

There were a couple of RG hostesses, Sasha and Lucy somehow convinced me to get up and dance. Ordinarily I don't really do much dancing, partially because I'm pretty disjointed when it comes to that sort of thing but I think I danced a great portion of the night away.

During a brief visit outside to get some fresh air, Sasha and Lucy were surprised to learn that I wasn't particularly interested in men, it's funny how people just assume that if you want to be a woman you also fancy men. They'd not been around t-girls before but they said they really enjoyed their night.

Rach and I made our way back to the room we were stopping at, we got a couple of honks from cars going by - I'm sure they wouldn't have beeped if they'd looked closer hehe.

We had a good night anyway.

Take care
Jenn xx

*According to Geoff

Dilemma

I met a girl a few weeks ago through some friends, she's really lovely. Anyway, I didn't think she was interested which I thought was a good thing as I'm thinking of starting on hormones etc. We've been in contact over the internet but I didn't really think there was much in it, I got a phone call from said friends saying that she does like me and I should make it known that I like her too if that was the case.

So my dilemma is, do I try and make something with her in the knowledge that I might not be what she wants in a year or so, plus have to tell her I'm TS? Or don't do anything?

If anyone has any thoughts on the situation they'd be greatly welcomed.

A perplexed Jenn x

Visiting friends in Newark

Last weekend I took a long drive to see some friends I've not seen for about a year and a half, I'm not a very good friend, luckily Racheal and Simon are! We spent Saturday catching up and popping in to town for a few bits and bobs for going out in the evening, yey! Simon's a great photographer and took a few pics of me before heading out, somehow he managed to take a couple of good shots - given the subject ;)

Check out Simon Ross Photography.

We went in to Nottingham for the evening, first stop was the Pit & Pendulum which I really enjoyed as they were playing some really good music - I can't help being a rock-chick - even if I don't look like one always. Plus there were loads of Pirates loitering, yaaaaah! After a few drinks we moved on to @d2 which is about a 5-10 minute walk, ordinarily would be nice punctuation to an evening however on this occasion it was a bit fresh. @d2 is more trendy than the Pit & Pendulum, in that it is trendy, we had a few more drinks before NG1 opened, it's literally next door so only brief exposure to the Northern-bite.


Before heading out - Photo by Simon Ross

Now the best part about NG1 is that I got asked for ID!! I was quite shocked and flattered, I didn't have any ID on me so I had to flutter my eyelids and try and convince the bouncer I was of age - somehow I managed it, phew! The club's really cool, there are various rooms with different music not to mention a couple of chill out areas, it didn't really get too busy even towards the end of our stay.


In NG1

Throughout the whole night I didn't feel uncomfortable being out in Nottingham, there were no comments, just a really enjoyable night with friends - how it should be!

Thanks to Racheal and Simon for the lovely weekend, I look forward to seeing you both again soon.

Jenn xx

House Work and Revelations

I decided to have a day to myself and get some house work done, I'd make a great little house wife keeping the house clean and tidy, doing the washing and the cooking. I just need a prince (or preferably a princess) to come and whisk me off my feet away from the responsibilities of my current life, I do hope it's an electric whisk too.


Mooching around the house

It's a lovely day out, I'd be tempted to go out if I wasn't so worried about being read/recognised, I've more than enough to keep me occupied so it's not too much of an issue. I think I'll be a lot more confident when I've had some Laser done on my face - ZZZzzzap!

I think I've had a revelation, I'm pretty sure I'm TS, I've been thinking about it for a while as I'm sure you may have guessed so I will be certainly seeing a doctor pretty soon - watch this space. I don't think I'll need to tell work just yet but I think I'll have to about <6 months in to taking hormones - eek! :D So everyone that's told me over the last couple of years that I'm TS and I said "Hmmmm I'm not sure", well you're right. I feel like I've hit a milestone (in my mind at least), I feel like I can make some assertive steps now. It's all going to be very exciting and scary, there will be highs and there will be lows I'm not fooling myself about that but I think I'm on the right track now.

Enough waffle, I need to sort out my clothes and put some washing on.

Jenn xxx

And so...

I've been pretty busy recently, no rest for the wicked so it seems. I did manage to get up to Lucy's Welcome Home Party which was great fun and amazing to see everyone, I've not been out in Brumlington for such a long while. I drove furiously to get there straight from work and some how I managed it in a reasonable time giving me a few minutes to get myself showered, changed and to the party, I must add I was greeted with a beautiful smile and glass of wine courtesy of Chloe. I was pretty much the last person to arrive (fashionably late is how I see it) although I don't think anyone was worried, it was fab to catch up with everyone and meet some new people.


We also went out to the usual: The Loft and on to The Village a bit later on. I won't bore with details but it was a great night even if I was caught by the paparazzi.

I have some good news, I've booked an appointment for a "Laser" session, so I've got to go and do another tester patch as it's with a different clinic to before. I'm trying to build up my courage to go and see a professional about me being gender dysphoric, gender variant, transvestite, transgendered or transsexual - delete as appropriate.

I'm not sure if I wanted to write anything else, I'll do another post if I remember something. Alan, sorry for any concern caused... I typed the title title and pressed enter which posted a blank post.

Jenn xx