Friday 9 April 2010

At the Gender Clinic

I have been before so it's not a new experience, actually while I think about it I'll talk about my first time there. Cue wavy cut to soft black and white (Heroes-esque) flashback:

Driving around Newton Abbot, I decided I was a little lost but saw a sign for the hospital which I followed and parked in the car park and made my way in, after talking to the receptionist (I didn't even think about it, I just went up to the counter and asked her where to go) it turned out I was at the wrong hospital. I was cutting it fine as it was so I was sure to be late now, the nice lady gave me directions to the other hospital. I thanked her and went back to my car whilst trying to call the Gender Clinic to let them know I was coming but going to be a little late, I couldn't get through. I proceeded to get lost and resorted to getting google maps on my phone to see where I needed to go, after a little orientation I managed to get on the right road and found the right hospital.

I hurried my way up to what I thought was the right building, which wasn't, again I was pointed in the right direction. Now in the right building I said I had an appointment and was a little late as I'd gone to the wrong hospital to the receptionist, she asked if I'd been there before suggesting to go straight through, realising the fact I'd gone to the wrong hospital she directed me through.

It was all good and a good experience, I didn't even think about talking to people... I just went in. The appointment was good, mostly background, family, childhood how I felt stuff really.

So that was my first experience there, today my third time there didn't provide such a ridiculous story for getting there however it was good. We spoke about how I was getting on spending more time as me which lead to what my thoughts were about going full time.

We also spoke about whether I wanted to go on hormones and what the effects might be, the basics of them being lowering testosterone, softening of the skin, lower libido, and the like. I'm going to talk to their Dr. about the specifics and full details about them and what the long term effects might be. I will do a lot of research before going so I will know what questions to ask.

I mentioned that I wanted to know about what options I have for sperm storage, the NHS can't help me however there is a private clinic that can do it. It would be around £80-100 a month for up to 10 years storage.

I did have a look for a picture to attach to this post but they're on my other machine, I'll dig one out for next time, sorry.

Jenny x

Wednesday 7 April 2010

Where I'm at...

In my last post I mentioned I'd had a referral through from the NHS, more specifically the Gender Clinic in Newton Abbot. I've been a couple of times now and I'm due to go again on Friday.

As I said in my previous post, I've been going out when possible as Jenny, this has been fine but I still worry how work/society/family/friends that aren't so close to me will change towards me and wonder if living a split life as I am currently is the best option - I don't wish to be isolated and to not fit in as a male or a genetic female.

I will no doubt have more thoughts on this subject.
Jenny x

Tuesday 30 March 2010

True Jenny style

I know it's been a long while since my last post, it kind of got to a point where I didn't know where to start which in it's self became a bit daunting. Happy New Year by the way ;)

Apart from that, I've been well and have been going out a lot more but I'll get on to that in a moment, first I need to get up to speed with what's been happening.

Since London, I've had private head shrinkage which was required by Dr. Curtis if I wanted him to prescribe hormones for me. I did 3 months or so of that and was to my amazement deemed sane, I found it a great help although it did make me think about things (what it's supposed to do) and decided I wasn't at the point where I wanted to start on hormones so I didn't go back to see Dr. Curtis.

I have also been talking to a lady from the NHS about things which has been a great help and my NHS referral came through although I didn't know about it until after Christmas when I spoke to my GP again. I called them up and it turns out they had the wrong address, I corrected them and got another appointment through the post that I received and acknowledged.

Before Christmas I had decided to tell my parents about what has been happening, I actually decided to tell them a few months beforehand but it actually happened about a week or so just before in the end. They were really supportive at first and seemed to take it really well which was great and made me feel really happy about it, reality then hit with what it actually meant and then (/now) are finding it hard to come to terms with. With statements like "But you really like girls", "the music you listen to isn't very girly", "you like outdoor sports" and "you've never shown any signs of being feminine" are a selection.

I've been having (proper) laser on my face since before Christmas at sk:n clinics which I would recommend, the laser snaps a lot more than IPL but the results are so much better - IPL didn't have any real effect but laser worked from the first session with hairs falling out a week or so after the treatment.

I think that's pretty much what's been going on with me over the last 6 months with one omission but I'll talk about that another time. As I said earlier, I've been going out a lot more to public places, I decided before I could make any decisions about going full time it would be a good idea to spend more time out and about so that's what I've been doing. I've been out for walks, to the pub for lunch, cinema, theatre, restaurants, bowling and by no means least shopping.

Sorry I've not put a pic on, I'll dig one out for the next post.
Take care,
Jenny