I met a girl a few weeks ago through some friends, she's really lovely. Anyway, I didn't think she was interested which I thought was a good thing as I'm thinking of starting on hormones etc. We've been in contact over the internet but I didn't really think there was much in it, I got a phone call from said friends saying that she does like me and I should make it known that I like her too if that was the case.
So my dilemma is, do I try and make something with her in the knowledge that I might not be what she wants in a year or so, plus have to tell her I'm TS? Or don't do anything?
If anyone has any thoughts on the situation they'd be greatly welcomed.
Last weekend I took a long drive to see some friends I've not seen for about a year and a half, I'm not a very good friend, luckily Racheal and Simon are! We spent Saturday catching up and popping in to town for a few bits and bobs for going out in the evening, yey! Simon's a great photographer and took a few pics of me before heading out, somehow he managed to take a couple of good shots - given the subject ;)
We went in to Nottingham for the evening, first stop was the Pit & Pendulum which I really enjoyed as they were playing some really good music - I can't help being a rock-chick - even if I don't look like one always. Plus there were loads of Pirates loitering, yaaaaah! After a few drinks we moved on to @d2 which is about a 5-10 minute walk, ordinarily would be nice punctuation to an evening however on this occasion it was a bit fresh. @d2 is more trendy than the Pit & Pendulum, in that it is trendy, we had a few more drinks before NG1 opened, it's literally next door so only brief exposure to the Northern-bite.
Before heading out - Photo by Simon Ross
Now the best part about NG1 is that I got asked for ID!! I was quite shocked and flattered, I didn't have any ID on me so I had to flutter my eyelids and try and convince the bouncer I was of age - somehow I managed it, phew! The club's really cool, there are various rooms with different music not to mention a couple of chill out areas, it didn't really get too busy even towards the end of our stay.
Throughout the whole night I didn't feel uncomfortable being out in Nottingham, there were no comments, just a really enjoyable night with friends - how it should be!
Thanks to Racheal and Simon for the lovely weekend, I look forward to seeing you both again soon.
I decided to have a day to myself and get some house work done, I'd make a great little house wife keeping the house clean and tidy, doing the washing and the cooking. I just need a prince (or preferably a princess) to come and whisk me off my feet away from the responsibilities of my current life, I do hope it's an electric whisk too.
Mooching around the house
It's a lovely day out, I'd be tempted to go out if I wasn't so worried about being read/recognised, I've more than enough to keep me occupied so it's not too much of an issue. I think I'll be a lot more confident when I've had some Laser done on my face - ZZZzzzap!
I think I've had a revelation, I'm pretty sure I'm TS, I've been thinking about it for a while as I'm sure you may have guessed so I will be certainly seeing a doctor pretty soon - watch this space. I don't think I'll need to tell work just yet but I think I'll have to about <6 months in to taking hormones - eek! :D So everyone that's told me over the last couple of years that I'm TS and I said "Hmmmm I'm not sure", well you're right. I feel like I've hit a milestone (in my mind at least), I feel like I can make some assertive steps now. It's all going to be very exciting and scary, there will be highs and there will be lows I'm not fooling myself about that but I think I'm on the right track now.
Enough waffle, I need to sort out my clothes and put some washing on.
I've been pretty busy recently, no rest for the wicked so it seems. I did manage to get up to Lucy's Welcome Home Party which was great fun and amazing to see everyone, I've not been out in Brumlington for such a long while. I drove furiously to get there straight from work and some how I managed it in a reasonable time giving me a few minutes to get myself showered, changed and to the party, I must add I was greeted with a beautiful smile and glass of wine courtesy of Chloe. I was pretty much the last person to arrive (fashionably late is how I see it) although I don't think anyone was worried, it was fab to catch up with everyone and meet some new people.
We also went out to the usual: The Loft and on to The Village a bit later on. I won't bore with details but it was a great night even if I was caught by the paparazzi.
I have some good news, I've booked an appointment for a "Laser" session, so I've got to go and do another tester patch as it's with a different clinic to before. I'm trying to build up my courage to go and see a professional about me being gender dysphoric, gender variant, transvestite, transgendered or transsexual - delete as appropriate.
I'm not sure if I wanted to write anything else, I'll do another post if I remember something. Alan, sorry for any concern caused... I typed the title title and pressed enter which posted a blank post.