Cycling and punchers

Today was a lovely sunny and warm day, I needed to go for a cycle to work out how long it will take me to get to work and find a route. As it was such a nice day I thought it would have been silly to wear trousers so shorts were order of the day, I've not been out in shorts when I've had shaved legs before so this was a brave step. While I was feeling brave I decided to wear a black vest top so I didn't get horrid t-shirt tanning. All was going well until I got a puncher, at least it was a nice day.

Thanks to Alan, Alexia and Lynn for their kind words.

Jenn xx

Why does it have to be so complicated?

Well, I've not posted for a bit so I thought I'd better get back up to date.

I did finally decide what to wear going out with Tanya, Kate and Ian in Bristol as you can see from the picture below (thanks Ian). It was a good night.

Kate and I at Davina's

I was then super busy with work and my drab life, more on that later, only having a few mins to quickly check email etc. It's not all bad though as I've been away on holiday skiing, well snowboarding with an old friend (in drab) which turned out to be quite expensive with the pound being so weak. We were staying in a Chalet with other people so we had to be sociable, I noticed I easily played the male social role and enjoyed it too especially on the slopes. One thing that amazed me was how easy it is to identify gender through the thick layers of salopettes, jackets, hats and gloves, I'm still unsure whether it was the tailoring of the clothing or that men and women move subtly in different ways. Whilst away I thought about relationships but always return to the conclusion that:

1. Them being freaked out by me having shaved legs, etc.


2. I don't think it's fair to start seeing someone when I have it in the back of my mind that I'd prefer to be a woman and therefore not content with who I am.

I can't help but feel slightly angry at the society we live in and humans in general at the fear of what is different, it's probably a sound evolutionary reaction but surely we're past such primitive thought processes?

I think my main problem is that I don't know where I'm going, actually the real issue is that I know where I'd like to be but I don't know how I can get there. I like my family, friends, work etc and I don't want to loose them, I care how people think of me too.

We're 3 months in to 2009 and I don't feel like I've made any progress, I had a consultation about laser (blasting) my face but that fell through as their machine broke so I need to start again there. I've been too chicken to go to my GP to talk to them about it, the worst bit of all is that I'm going to look back and think why didn't I do something sooner.

Sorry for the mostly negative post but it's how I'm feeling at the moment, Why does life have to be so complicated?

Jenn x

All of a twitter

I've finally decided to utilise Twitter as a What am I doing/thinking now, if you're thinking what is Twitter well I should probably explain: Twitter is literally for broadcasting what you're up to at the moment, a bit like Facebook's status (which if I had an account, I keep meaning to get one) might say "Jenny - As the number of clothes I have increases so does the time taken to decide what to wear." so it's a little like a mini-blog if you will.

What's more is I've made it nice an easy to keep up to date by linking to my Twitter over there (on the right) under the heading My Twitter.

Time will tell how much use it gets.

I'm off out tonight with Tanya, a tgirl from Devon so I'd better get off and decide what to take to wear.

Jenn xx

All dressed up and nowhere to go...

Well on Sunday I decided to have a day to myself and my camera so I got up, had a shower, a shave and put WAY too much makeup on! Last time I dressed and went to the beach I hardly had any makeup on apart from foundation and a little mascara and eyeliner, well... I certainly made up for it this time - oh dear, oh dear! The outfits needed to match the boldness of my makeup so I dragged out the lovely cocktail dress I wore the first time I went out (The Way Out club with Nicky - I'm forever indebted) got out my hardly worn red satiny heels and a red bolero, why am I describing it when I can just show you? Who knows, here it is:

All dressed up...

Those who know me will know that I absolutely adore my corsets, I love the feeling you get wearing one and the shape they give you. I'm not sure if there's a more feminine item of clothing. I recently treated myself to a new corset as a Christmas pressie, I love my other corsets but this one somehow is even better, I feel it has limited applications but for those few occasions/outfits it's going to be fab!

Let's go to work

It's a Vollers 22" overbust, I can get it pretty much fully closed for (very) limited periods, fear not though I'm working up to wearing it for longer periods.

The worst thing about getting all dressed up is having to take it all off, especially nail varnish - it's like a slap in the face "ha ha, you're a boy and boy's aren't allowed to wear makeup or anything nice". Well, I'm certainly not the first to wear it and I'm pretty sure I won't be the last.

Anyway, that was my Sunday. Thanks to everyone that's commented on my posts or my pictures, the encouragement is greatly welcomed and appreciated.

Love Jenn xxx

Rise of the T-Girls!

I came across this video, it contains some very wise words:

Just do it! Get over the fear!

The good old BBC have written a great little article on (funnily enough) the subject of Gender Dysphoria/Transgender, it's from the Radio 1 Sunday Surgery program that deals with all matter of problems people might have. It's great that the BBC did such a program as they have such a massive audience, I'm sure it help a lot of confused people. My favourite comment at the bottom is: "I'm normal then? what a relief."

Just a little one this time, more to come...
Hugs Jenn xxx